Fight on

Heres an old Chinese story my crew member shared with me (Aladar):

The country is at war and they are attacking. The soldiers docked and the general ordered them to burn all their docked boats. They were puzzled and asked what if they want to retreat? The general said, "If you want to live, then take the city. There's only one way to go which is forward." The troops were pumped and all that was in their mind was to charge forward because they couldn't turn back. In the end, they owned the enemy and took the city.

You are still young. You have nothing to lose, so just charge forward and go for it. If it really fails, it's not to late to try something else. I believe u have the ability to attain what u want man. Gabe don't believe in yourself, but believe in me that believes in you that believes in me that believes in everyone that believes in you. LOL Fight on.

Never doubt yourself.

It's crazy how the enemy can tempt us to doubt ourselves. A few things the enemy seems to attack frequently are our family and our relationships. But go figures, these are the two areas closest to our Father's heart. What Aladar said was such a heavy reminder of the soldiers I am leading. It is such a strong reminder that I love because the Father first loved me. It's insane how as humans, we sometimes want to revert back to our old-self. Perhaps the reason why we feel useless, fearful, and ineffective to move forward is because we still have our old 'flesh' docked on shore. Didn't Jesus and Paul preach to us that we need to die to our flesh and be born again? Burn those boats and quit looking back! CHAAAAAARRRRRGGEE

Hold up... Before anyone charges, keep in mind, I'm not saying that one's success is dependent on their own efforts. Our dependence is on His Spirit and by us abiding in Him. In so doing, fruit will bear (I think that's in John 14 or 15). But in order for us to bear fruit requires a crucifixion of our old flesh (those boats docked on shore). The crucified life must occur in order for their to be a transformed life, then the obedient life.