Refiner's fire makes pure gold. To get there may require burning away the silver.
I recognize I am no longer the same person I was a few years ago. As I mature spiritually, I recognize that I release bags and bags of garbages I once held onto like treasure. What I am reluctant in letting go of is the area of past friendships especially people I once looked up to. At the end of the day, I need to ask myself "Why do I still hang on to these people? WHY do they matter so much?"
There are days I feel it is my PRIDE I desire to feed - if these "great Christians" like me, I am validated also as a "great Christian". But there are days where I am simply torn and in ANGUISH at the existence of disunity.
I simply do not know what to do. I wish I could just move forward and "not care" as they do (as it seems). But I can't lie to myself... I do care - I just don't know what to do.
